ABSOLUTE  SHIT-CHATTING (to be refined)

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DESIGN BA JOURNAL 

 

5TH OCTOBER 2020

 

messages to helena 

00:14

   been in joshs room teaching him abiut plants and plant care for nearky a bloody hour; im now plant-         sitting for him until theyre better (he didnt know how to look after them before) vause i want to - and       they all have babies im gonna take and hes letting my have as many bits as i want !! in return i gave         him two of my necklaces and a piece of coral  -his mum is like a a marine biologist, so in his family             home they used ot have a giant fishtank mostly full of starfish native to the isle of man

00.22

   It’s a type of thyme I think or really basic leaf herb I just can’t grab the name off my tongue

[it was sage]

 

01:28

 

01:30

   ‘Beefed-up’Mac n cheese from a can: Sainsbury’s basics *can* , butter, salt, pepper n a pouch of mayo

   Wasn’t so good 

   Added carrots

   Cig break 

   Chat with Louis 

   “BLAME HARRIET”

   ??!! WTAF !!??

   interesting.  

02:05

   Back inside 

   Not hungry anymore 

   Will have to bin food

   The Mayo pouch with the egg in it went off on the 30th of September 

   Feelings of guilt for wasting food

   Ate most of it though 

   And would rather not get food poisoning 

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THINGS TO DO IN MORNING:

• wake up early

• call helena (make sure she’s good and send her pics of The Shit Food) 

• Tidy room and sort out plants and pack a bag

• Breakfast and caffeine and cig

• Put stuff on kitchen notice board (in particular “PLEASE PUT METAL AND PLASTIC RECYCLABLE VESSELS ON TOP OF THE BIG FREEZER, thank u! Maya x”)

• Sit with josh and apply for local GP, book COVID tests 

• Also sexual health clinic: book-in 

• Walk to [Find] studios 

• Get back on this document

• Research word meanings and make a definition list too

• Make a website? 

• Message Tena (Y2 Computer Science Student / New Friend) about making a website for me :)) (just kidding: about helping me make a website) (COLLABORATION) 

• Talk about this and current Design Endeavours With Tutor and THERAPY ON FRIDAY MORNINGS AT 11

• The Brief on TEAMS before 

• show. no. symptoms. (Until you know you have it or don’t have it.) 

• Internal Moral Compass having a _______ (word for compass ‘fit’) - combatting moral questions, naiveté (look up definition), ignorance, lack of maturity  

• Ask helena for all journal-style-writing-types 

20:10

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THINGS TO BRING:

• sketch book

• Note book

• Pen selection 

• Tape

• Bluetac 

• Pins?

• Headphones

• Laptop n case

• Keys, wallet, essentials etc. 

• Water bottleS

• Masks

• Tissues 

• Phone 

• Chargers/cables

• Hard drive and adapterS

02:22

Have only moved a few metres

Still haven’t binned food 

(This Document Is Not Necessarily Written In Chronological Order)

02:29

Still not moved. 

Cba now 

Half finished shandy in fridge 

Photos should be added 

Need to purge both laptop and phone for for storage space 

Half asleep

Leaving stuff out

Will do in morning. 

My Bachelor of Arts Design Degree Starts Tomorrow Morning x

02:32

I ended up cleaning. 

02:44 I’ve washed up everything 

Shit

Just realised 

I left my room door wide open. 

02:49

All good 

Teeth are brusheth (?? what does ‘eth actually mean ?? Ask Helena ??)

Clearing space 

Passing out 

TBC. 

03:09

03:18

The Original “Draft”

Matija fine art contortion performance

Bouldering 

Plants and gardening

Helena and everything fucking Sick. About Her 

Zoe, Chloe etc 

New friends 

SO MANY COINCIDENCES 

QUOTE BOOK 

MAPPING 

5Th chain theory - ASK HELENA 

03:21 

gtb (note to self - Go To Bed)

03:22

Let’s try this again

TBC. 

Ffs 

Midnight orange glow of city 

Always sleep with blinds open. 

(At least a bit - for my mental and for the plants) 

remember oxygen levels

Window open a crack. 

Need to clean new cuttings (church/fox/fleabag/coincidences) 

03:24

Move big plank of Yew 

Saved Helena’s life with my reflexes 

I sleep alone now 

Helena of Troy

Watch horrible histories 

Go to fucking sleep. 

03:26

TBC. 

 

 

Title ideas:

“Chatting Wass”

“Chatting shit”

“Chatting stuff”

“Writing to Helena”

“casual dictatum”

“Learning from my best attributes”

“Learning From My Best Attribute(s)”

“Moving into halls during covid”

“Asking Helena”

 

• analytical 

• Dictation 

• Journalism 

• Bullet-point journaling 

• Dialogue 

• Big fat combo. 

• Helena 

 

“Im just making myself some cash in a very ethical way”

“Just gonna make some cash in an ethical way.”

“Making cash in an ethical way”

 

Entries: (/concepts)

• Amrit 

• Nude project 

• Commission work/s

• Female plumber 

• Business partners with Michael 

• Climbing ‘E2’ (bouldering) 

• COVID PANIC ON CAMPUS (Loring halls absolute beefs n dramas)

• 9 basic needs - balance to be found 

• {Work to be done...

• Focus 

• Compartmentalisation 

• Appreciate Helena (ie. for introducing interest of enhanced vocabulary and general interest in so many important and so many wonderfully random topics) 

• Being-Training (brain body soul) to function on less sleep by ‘fuelling’ in other ways. 

• Josh: plant-sitting and teaching 

• Big business plans 

• Plant auction 

• Jewellery auctions unless for Mates 

• Write about Louis (like-minded, 22, studying Anthropology... maybe?...)

• Write about George (like-minded, 20, can’t remember what he studies, was in Bali at the same time as me Summer 2019) 

• Cherrie: friendship

• Decide who is appropriate to write about(/interview, talk to, learn from etc) - depending on general personalities and into The Deep if known 

• Train to get an Asbestos Hands and Mouth

• The Degree Brief VA?

• THE DEGREE SHOW NEXT DOOR!! 

• Definitely need photos in this document. 

• Document plants 

• Work space 

• Portfolio 

• Document everything 

• Video everything 

• Talk about priority as a concept 

• Trading as a concept (I’ll scratch your back you scratch mine) (Japan 2015) (Michael) (Joshua) (Magnus) 

• Contorting cardboard And Myself 

• Organise this mess

• And the Todo list mess’

• Master of my own bladder 

• Tell helena about this second late-revelation-night 

• The first draft. 

• Then a real document 

• Poems 

• Work out body 

• Calc how many hrs sleep

 

Design dreams:

• Landscape design/architecture 

• Gardening

• Eco-farming “green city”

• Journalism

• Poetry 

• Jewellery 

• Commissions 

• Portrait work

{   A Future of Freelance   }

 

References:

Horrible Histories 

Florence And The Machine 

Ratatouille 

Hanna

The Wasp Factory 

Tales of the City 

Robin Robertson?...

 

(Need more things brought up from home...) before it’s too late to see parents. Have that conversation. 

I might have it. 

I probably do. 

It will be. 

Oh. 

A. 

Very. 

Socially. 

Distanced. 

Drop-off. 

 

Dig up GCSE english Lang shit 

 

Pay for Cloud 

Just for film 

Edit a video or two

Find format 

Website 

For everything 

 

Plants. 

Art. 

Design. 

 

A lot more life admin to be done young man. 

Little boy. 

But excuse me Ms. Robertson. 

Yes lady. 

Life admin is indefinite 💘. 

 

iCloud for notes and film. 

Develops!! 

B&W lockdown project 

And also: VE Day documentary 

 

The hair story. 

03:41. 

 

I most likely have covid. 

That is okay. 

We are in the same boats. 

Our vessels are aligned. 

Helena and family. 

Test first?

Then moral questioning? 

Or move forward as normal until tomorrow.  

When the test will occur. 

Hope my decisions are just. 

“Blame Harriet”. 

Is fucked. 

Touch wood. 

I moved my yew :(

03:43

TBC.  

03:57

Chicken bone to the face    Writing. 

Can’t sleep tbh

03:58 

Too much screen time 

Too much focus 

Too late at night 

So tired 

Bright light not helping.

Tired 

Got a bit of a cold

I need that test. 

My loved-ones need that test. 

 

My Comedic Job-Titles 

MC J-T

(Backronym)

• Gardener 

• Landscape Designer 

• Painter 

• Artist 

• Logo Designer 

• Design Designer 

• Designer Designer 

• Jewellery Maker

• Wood Worker 

• Metal Werker 

• Bartender 

• Babysitter

• Waitress 

• Waiter 

• Bartender 

• Climbing Centre Staff 

• Hospitality 

• Legend. (Insert That Ven Diagram) 

04:03

 

All-nighter is tempting 

This Work Isn’t important enough for that yet 

I’ve done plenty already 

Some sleep. 

Would. 

Be. 

Good. 

 

Wow   

A Sign 

04:20

When I decided not to sleep... (yet)

 

Too much to plan and think about and do, in such potentially-little-time-roaming-physically-freely-around-SE to do it 

 

Interview TEMPLATE:

(Also just for Adddress Book) 

 

Yo asking some carefully selected random people to do this questionnaire cause I’m interested, and also cause I can make it part of my degree 💪🏼

 

As much or as little depth as you please: 

(*only need to answer Questions applicable to yourself but pleAse provide at least a one-word answer, if you want to, but you have to, thank you) 

((anecdotes, jobs, facts, travels, current studies, education, verbs, nouns, adjectives, adverbs, prepositions, conjunctions, determiners, pronouns, etc. All Very Welcome)) 

• Name: 

• Any form of self-promotion: 

• D.O.B.:

• Current Life Situation/Status/Job/Study/Lack-there-of/dream [CLS: CSM: Central London’s Shit-Chatters (backronym)]: 

• What were you doing from the age of ___________ (being conceived/birthed/0 years old) to being 1 years old?: 

• What were you doing from the age of 2 to 5? And how did you feel about it? 

• What were/are you doing from the age of 5 to 11? And how did/do you feel about it?

• What were/are you doing from the age of 11 to 16? And how did/do you feel about? 

• What were/are you doing from the age of 16 to 18? And how did/do you feel about? 

• What were/are you doing from the age of 18 to 19? And how did/do you feel about? 

• What were/are you doing from the age of 19 to 20? And how did/do you feel about? 

• What were/are you doing from the age of 20 to 23? And how did/do you feel about? 

• What were/are you doing from the age of 23 to 25? And how did/do you feel about? 

• What were/are you doing from the age of 25 to 27/8? And how did/do you feel about? 

• ETC OMG NEED TO ALEEP 04:56 

 

 

Boys with anxiety are Shy 

Utilise everything Apple has given. 

Message Harriet from D4 to make sure she’s okay 

4:50

Was planning to wake at 7 

Might not happen xxx 

 

A couple hours.  

 

Might. Work. 

 

If I fuel right. 

TBC. 

 

Big jobs throughout lockdown. 

Heat stroke, commissions ETC 

 

05:19

About to set a an alarm for sunrise for time lapse

 

Sunrise is 07:07 today 

05/10/20/07:07

Sunset is 18:28 today

05/10/20/18:28

 

Interesting. 

 

3rd train of morning at 05:21 

 

Having a tiny wee 

 

Might try nap or rest for an hour or two

But also feeling quite 

Brain-Alive 

 

I’ve got freshers flu / common cold. 

 

Is what I’m thinking. 

From now on tho. 

Taking this shit more serious than ever 

I’m as serious... as a heart attack (ref. Below decks) 

 

South East London Forever x “ironic” 

I love that song and the lyrics 

 

I have no symptoms. 

 

05:25

Smokers catch COVID transmits to smokers  is harder to transmit

 

05:27 4th or 5th train 

 

A worldWIDE demographic-inclusive pandemic causing panic and a global learning curve. Only ignorance stays bliss. 

Negative connotations of the word ignorance. 

05:30 

Suggests true outlook. 

 

Horticulture 

Herbalist 

Nutrition 

Chakra and history

CONGESTION: 

Yog - marmite, yeasty stuff 

Lemsips 

Lemon 

Ginger

Cinnamon 

Honey 

Tea

Lymph nodes

Nodes/glands that are throughout torso 

INDIGESTION:

Milk thistles

Mint 

Lemon 

Honey 

BRAIN FUEL:

Lemon/citrus (purifies water) 

Fish

Water

Iron 

PROTEIN:

Meat chicken 

Nuts 

IMMUNE: 

Iron 

Dirt 

Potassium: 

Bananas

Vit D:

The sun 

BLOOD: 

CALCIUM 

ETC 

 

Supplements?... 

 

Anthropology is sick. 

 

I miss my girlfriend. 

And Marnie and Sluggy. 

Clever women. 

 

Matija and Tena are cool and smart too

So are Chloe and Zoe 

And the majority of new mates/people I’ve met 

 

07:19

I’ve started the day. 

07:58

Drank that shandy from the fridge 

Feel productive tho 

No rain 

Nice awakening: natural light 

Time to chug massive coffee 

Cleaner came and used bubble gum flavours floor cleaner 

Not Grace anymore tho I don’t think so s/he didn’t do toooo much to the kitchen

Changed bins and gave new bin bags tho which is all I need

I’ve been stock piling the bin bags they put out under the right hand sink 

No one else has noticed 

So now I have free binbags

Also I clean surfaces n stuff when no one is in here, the jobs are SPARKLING right now

08:01 

Cig time

08:08

Sat outside next to a MASSIVE EARTH WORM

Early bird catches the worm. 

Strong as hell coffee 

Interesting to think about interaction with Grace the cleaner (yesterday morning I think): with regards to how she referred to the new cleaner for our block (she said we were getting a new one Monday Specifically)

*broom story with security last Thursday*

The new cleaner is a black woman

Majority of the cleaners appear to be black women 

Guilty Feminist Podcast: Black Women And Girls Lives Matter 

Interesting 

Cleaners: locals: mostly women: white cleaner Grace spoke very subtly down about the new cleaner (a black woman whose name I’m yet to find out)

This manifested itself with suggested she’d go The Extra Mile and the new cleaner won’t wipe surfaces unless it’s clear of all our shit (crockery, washing up, etc) 

I personally think that’s Fair EfuckingNough

08:17 

I said good morning to a girl I haven’t met 

She had a mask on and looked a bit Scatty

Must be going for an early-morning booked-COVID test 

Lots of stigma and shame based around the pandemic 

08:29 

New cleaner is called Sarah 

She’s shy

But glad I asked her name

And asked how she wants the kitchen left

I said do you want stuff put away

She said yes 

08:30

08:53

Family chat

Mums helped me identify all the cuttings I took last night 

We FaceTimed for the first time as well

I called Ella and Will 

They’re in the IOW 

Heating not on apparently 

So chatted

Then mum dad and sades called

Chatted 

Didn’t mention covid stuff

Nice catch-ups tho

10:13 

Still the 5th of October 

In studio messaging helena 

No energy 

Didn’t fuel correctly

But happy inside 

Just 

I am that person 

Whose typing profusely on her MacBook 

Can’t tell if anyone else is 

But it does matter 

I do not care about those kinds of things

Waiting for TEAMS call to start 

First day of BIG SCHOOL 

Excited 

Energy: depleted 

Starving. 

10:16

10:33

Id rather have this talk in person 

But its good still  tho

Just my attention span is not on point 

Unsurprisingly 

Many technical difficulties 

However 

Stuart is handling it well 

10:53 

Feels like I should be able to smoke in here - I’m comfy and warm now the sun is out 

I just held my pen like a cigarette

And I wish it was the reality 

 

DaDaIsm